Yesterday evening John and I picked up his Uncle David from the airport. As we drove, there was the most beautiful sunset. I am a sucker for a beautiful sky. Seeing a beautiful sky makes me feel so close to heaven. It was a true treat.
Today I spent the day with my family. We ate lunch at Carolina Brothers BBQ. My Uncle Carl worked so hard arranging all the flowers for my wedding. We hung out, and we had a bonfire tonight in my parents backyard. We roasted hot dogs and marshmallows. I loved today. Being with my family and extended family and close friends brought true joy.
I am going to take a hiatus from updating my blog daily with moments of joy. But I’ll start up again probably November 1.
Tomorrow is a big day. One I’ve waited for my whole life, and one I am certain will be joyful. I am laying in my bed as I type this and looking at my wedding dress hanging on my door. People have asked me today if I am nervous, and the answer is no. Marrying John feels so normal. I just feel calm and like everything is normal.
Today’s joy came this evening as I spent time with my mom and sister. I just felt so good being with them and spending time with them. I love my family and the friendships we have. It may sound trite, but I am being 100 percent sincere.
Today I felt joy when I was reminded by multiple experiences that in just a few days I will be married (e.g. my coworkers planned a pizza lunch for tomorrow to celebrate my upcoming nuptials). I’ve been touched over and over again by people’s kindness and congratulatory wishes.
Yesterday was a somewhat stressful day. I was never able to pinpoint a specific reason why, but it just was. I think I spent most of the day focused on the tasks at hand and not necessarily looking for joy. I think it can be easy to fall into that trap.
I will say that yesterday morning on the metro, instead of burying my head in a book, I decided to look up and enjoy the scenary. It was relaxing and peaceful.
I am combining yesterday’s and today’s entry because I was so tired last night, I fell asleep without even getting ready for bed. The moments of joy I felt yesterday and today came as I thought about what is going right in life. I think it’s easy to see all that’s going wrong sometimes and to get caught up in that. Yesterday evening was a perfect example. Let me explain… A while back we ordered John a white shirt from Macy’s for the wedding. Yesterday evening when he went to try on the shirt, we realized they sent us the wrong shirt and the wrong size. We went to the store and were not able to find the right shirt in the right size. We called Macy’s corporate customer service line and they were of no help. We ended up buying the shirt he wanted in a smaller size that he can make work for the wedding day. Then when we went home to try on the suit we received from the tailor, and we noticed some not so minor flaws. I recognize these are tiny bumps along the road and in the scheme of things aren’t that big of a deal. But in the moment, they felt like a big deal. However, joy and peace came when I remembered all that is going well in life. This Saturday, John and I are getting married, and that is the greatest blessing I could ask for.
Today at church, we sang one of my favorite hymns. The song is entitled “Because I Have Been Given Much.” While singing I felt joy and was reminded to focus on what I’ve been given and ways in which I can use those blessings to serve. Here’s a rendition of that song…
Today I felt joy as John and I ate pizza at one of my favorite places in Eastern Market in DC. John’s been out of town all week. As of last night, I thought he wouldn’t be coming home until 9:30 p.m., however, he was able to get an earlier flight. Right after landing, he drove to DC to pick me up from work. As we were about to get on 395 to leave the city, we noticed traffic was at a standstill. So we decided to have an impromtu date night in Eastern Market. We went to 7th Hill Pizza for dinner and capped the evening off with gelato from Pitango. The weather was very fall-like and put me in the best mood. Tonight was great.
As I was getting off the metro this morning, I noticed a guy remove his headphones and thank the custodian emptying the trash can. Seeing this prompted me to evaluate ways I could more fully express gratitude to those around me – be it to a stranger or close friend. It was heartwarming to see someone in this very, very busy city take the time to stop and say thank you.
In other unrelated news, I did my laundry tonight. And right after putting my colored clothes into the washer, I added bleach… I had a total mind lapse. Thankfully only a few things were affected. One of which was my favorite green sweater. But hey, that’s life 🙂 It could have been way worse.
I am starting a new project called “100 Moments of Joy.” Earlier today I was thinking about messages shared at last weekend’s LDS General Conference and ways in which I can strengthen my relationship with Christ. I came to the conclusion that I need to focus more on having and recognizing joy and “being of good cheer” as Christ invites us. To help me in this endeavor, I am going to write about a moment that brought me joy each day. I thought about doing this in my personal journal, but I realized I would feel more accountable (and actually – hopefully – complete the project) if I wrote about these moments on my blog.
Today’s moment occurred early this morning. I was awoken from my sleep by a phone call from a handsome finance who’s Uber app wasn’t working and who needed a ride to the airport. So I picked him up, dropped him off at the airport, and on my way home, one of my most favorite songs came on the radio. It’s called “Help Me Find It.” The song focuses on coming to understand God’s will for our lives. Sometimes as I ponder the future, I feel so overwhelmed. I know God’s next step for me is to marry John in the Holy Temple, but I have no idea what life has in store for us. As I begin this new journey of being a wife, I realize there is a lot I don’t know. But I know I am a daughter of God, and I know He has a plan. The portion of the song that really resonates with me is the chorus. Below are the words:
If there’s a road I should walk, help me find it. If I need to be still, give me peace for the moment. Whatever Your will Whatever Your will Can you help me find it Can you help me find it
Here’s a YouTube Video of the song. Give it a listen. It’s awesome.