Today I begin the last year of my 20’s. It’s been a good decade. Honestly, it feels like I’ve been in my 20’s forevvvverrrrr. I am not sure why I feel that way, but I do 🙂
So much has changed in my life during this last year – I got engaged, got married, signed a contract to build a home, and more. The greatest blessing of this year and of my life is becoming John’s wife. I’ve wanted to be married for a long time, and I always felt in my heart that God would lead me and guide me in this desire to find someone who was right for me.
A few weeks ago, when we were heading to sign the contract on our house, I pulled out an old notebook to take notes if needed during the signing. During the drive to the sales office, I saw I had written a few paragraphs about my desire to be married and my faith that I would find a spouse. It was fun to read those thoughts while riding in the car with John.
Today I am in Athens, Georgia for a work conference. I was here two years ago on my birthday as well. The aspect I remember most about the conference two years ago was the plane ride home. I distinctly remember sitting on the airplane and wishing I was flying home to my husband. I remember writing in my journal about how much I wanted to be married. That was a Thursday evening, and on the following Sunday, I met John.
I have no idea what this year will hold and what the next decade and decades will hold, but I am grateful that God has a plan. During this next year, I want to more fully cultivate a heart of happiness. Happiness is contagious, and I want my husband and my future children to be happy. I know that one way I can make that desire a reality is by choosing happiness myself. Life is sometimes hard, scary, dull, confidence-sucking, etc. Happiness is a choice, and I want to make that choice. I am so grateful for my faith that guides me each day to choose happiness by remembering who I am – a daughter of my Heavenly Father who loves me and I love Him.
May seemed to happen in the blink of an eye. To be honest, it was a harder month for me. John was out of town for work every week. He would leave on Sundays right after our church ended at 4 p.m. and then would get home around 10 p.m. on Fridays. I was super surprised how hard being alone would be. I didn’t think it would be that hard at all. We’ve only been married seven months and before getting married we didn’t live together, so I was used to coming home and him not being there. But marriage has changed me in ways that I didn’t anticipate. I didn’t realize how even in a few short months after becoming one in the eyes of God, you really feel like that person is “your other half.” The other day the thought occurred to me that each of our lives is like a string of thread that weaves together the pieces of our lives. When we get married, suddenly there are now two threads weaving together the pieces of our lives. The more stitches those threads make together, the stronger the threads become as one unit inseparable from one another without tearing apart the pieces they’ve woven together. While this month was hard, it made me more grateful for John in ways that I didn’t expect.
At the beginning of the month, my brother Trevor came home to visit from BYU. It was fun to have him in town for a few days. We went to the movies as a family, had a bonfire, and also FaceTimed with Blake (our brother on a mission for the LDS Church in Arizona). As a missionary, Blake focuses on serving God and the people of Arizona. To help missionaries stay focused, they only FaceTime with their families on Mother’s Day and Christmas, so it was a big deal to have all of us there to FaceTime with him on Mother’s Day.
At the end of the month, we headed to Iowa to visit John’s family. We spent time visiting each of his grandparents, but sadly didn’t get any pictures with any of them 😦 We also made two stops at Whitey’s (my favorite ice cream shop), and we stopped by The American Pickers store in Le Claire, Iowa. We drove 14 hours there and 14 hours back. Because John had been gone so much this month, being in a car with him for 14 hours was something I actually really looked forward to all month haha 🙂